Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Stop the world! I want to get on!

But Im not sure I can keep up...keep going...Ill jump on next rotation...

Im exhausted. Im happy. Im confused. Im excited. Im angry. Im social. Im hyper. Im alone. Im shy. Im outgoing...and I guess that just means Im living. Somewhere amongst all the craziness life is lived.

I started school again. Im at Palomar and it has been incredibly difficult. Its very much like returning to High School. And for those of you who I went to High School with know how I feel then...But for those of you who didn't...I hate it. It has been so different from my experience at UVSC. The classes are awesome and my professors are great but the actual atmosphere is nuts. But in all of it, I have realized how truly blessed I am. I have somthing to anchor me. I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I have an amazing family. Phenomenal friends. And even though life often feels like it is running away quicker then I grab it, I realize that I only feel like that because I am in fact running away from life. When I actually stop and look at everything that is going on, Life is happening. I just need to recognize it and embrace it. It may not be the life I think I should have or the life that I thought I would have, but it is still my life and I have every opportunity in front of me I just look for it. Now of course so much of it is all in the Lords timing but that doesnt mean that what Im looking for now isnt in his plan...Its just not yet. So stop looking for what you want and see what he has put in front of you.